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Monday, December 30, 2019

Leak 12/30/19






There will be one post this week



We Are Medina Lake: Short Story 12/31/19 10:00 PM MST



It will be released at midnight if you're on the East Coast in the USA and it will be technically released early for everyone else. Hope you enjoy it and have a great new year!







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Saturday, December 21, 2019

A Man












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Thursday, December 19, 2019

One Track Mind
















Running my will down.
Boarding up the halls,
so no one comes through my mind. 
I can’t stand it.
I won’t praise it. 
Go through my mind,
like a skipping record. 

Wherever I go,
wherever I hide.
You call to complain,
of my one track mind. 
Whatever I see,
whatever I want. 
Your voice echoes,
down the hall,
to my thoughts. 
Wherever I sleep,
there’s no place to hide.

Are you listening?
Because I keep saying, 
the same damn thing. 
Can we go in reverse?
To see this through,
are we through tonight?


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Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Apostates Sedition Part 6 :The Automatons







The future is bright with new technology that I would have never thought of. I see automatons created no less by a divergence my own hands. This future being very intelligent and understanding about the universe around them have made automaton like creatures. Not human but made to look human. Modeled after their creators. 

These automatons will be used to work as if they were slaves. To do manual labor and activities that humans don't want to do but these automatons have been created for another purpose. The world they live in is dying. I see blood raining from the sky and I do not understand why. The planet becomes evacuated and becomes a wasteland home to only unused automatons and people who wished to stay behind most likely in hope for a brighter future on the planet they lived on their entire lives but I will touch on that in a future entry. 

Automatons live among the humans on this flying ship going through the Void. The space outside of our planet. It surrounds everything and it seems near infinite and I see a uprising. Some automatons feel they have gained purpose. Some meddling from a third party. These automatons become more intelligent than their creators and wished to be recognized as something more than automatons. Because of this a civil war breaks out between many factions. The creations turning from their masters but this is not what the third party wanted. It wanted everything done peacefully. Through the courts and with as little push back as possible. 

There are many wicked out there. No matter who you are. Automaton or human. Celestial or Infernal. There will always be two sides of a ever growing spectrum but I see peace between these factions. Everyone allies with each other in fear of a new threat. The Vagabond has meddled in many things even in Divergence. These warring groups put their attention on the Vagabond. Some with and some against. In a race against time. To understand the true nature of the Vagabond.






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Monday, December 16, 2019

Leak 12/16/19




Three posts this week



Apostates Sedition Part 6: The Automatons: Prophecy-12/17/19 5:00 PM MST


One Track Mind: Poetry-12/19/19 5:00 PM MST


A Man: Visual Poetry-12/21/19 5:00 PM MST






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Saturday, December 14, 2019

Highs and Lows



















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Thursday, December 12, 2019

Into the Wild Part IV































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Tuesday, December 10, 2019

Higher








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Monday, December 9, 2019

Leak 12/9/19





Three posts this Week

Higher: Visual Poetry-12/10/19 5:00 PM MST 


Into the Wild Part IV: Photography-12/12/19 5:00 PM MST 


Highs and Lows: Visual Poetry-12/14/19 5:00 PM MST 



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Saturday, December 7, 2019

Love and Hate









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Thursday, December 5, 2019

Not Now







I can smell it now,
like falling rain. 
Take your time,
we’ll meet again. 
It gets all screwy,
and someone hurts. 
I think it’s time,
to hit reverse. 

Take your time,
we’ll meet again. 
Fallen lovers and,
missed friends. 
I see you now,
expect the worst. 
I said not now
if you said,
I love you first. 

We wait for time,
time to reverse.
Before we chase 
the fucking hearse. 
I swear I can hear,
the crying pass me by. 

I say not now,
let’s meet again. 
But what I need,
is a friend. 
Who can tell me,
that’s it not God. 

I wait to turn,
back the clocks. 
But memories are,
all I got. 
Tell me how it’s God,
that isn’t messing,
with the pace?

I say not now,
but I’m sorry now. 
The noise of,
the traffic just,
got so loud. 
I just wish I could hit reverse. 
A disguised blessing,
or walking curse. 

You speak to me,
is this the end?
I say not now, 
I’m here for you friend. 
Is it the fear I hate the most?
I’ll remember this time,
as I meet your ghost.


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Tuesday, December 3, 2019

Broken Heart









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Monday, December 2, 2019

Leak 12/2/19






Three posts this week 

Broken Hearts: Visual Poetry 12/3/19 5:00 PM MST 

Not Now: Poetry-12/5/19 5:00 PM MST 

Love and Hate: Visual Poetry-12/7/19 5:00 PM MST







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Saturday, November 23, 2019

The Doppelgänger (Revisited)















Edited by Stephanie Bachman


"You’re fired," Harold, a seemingly successful business executive, said at a near yell. "You’re lazy and I can’t stand being in the same room as you." He said as he shivered on his way out as a few people followed. Harold was making his weekly rounds of firings of people he didn’t feel make the cut for his business.


"Are you sure that was the right move?" An older employee asked. "He’s got a wife, children to feed. How is he supposed to provide if you’re firing the new employees left and right?"


"He should have brought his game. I am not leading a semi successful business; I’m leading a Fortune 500 business."


"You’re gonna regret it." Another employee said as she broke off from Harold hoping she wasn’t getting fired as well. "You’re gonna regret it." This phrase echoed through Harold’s mind all day.


"Will I?" Harold asked himself as he sat in his office at a near chuckle. No doubt in his outward appearance, Harold appeared to be very okay with his choice but inside he felt existential dread that his brash decisions were going to be the end of him, or worse, his company


Harold was heading home from a fairly long day of working still thinking of the words "you’re gonna regret it". Harold was a single father in which had a young daughter at the age of seven. Samantha was a fairly good girl but struggled to sleep at the house when no one was home. The nanny had left for the day and Harold seemed to neglect that she was home alone for a few hours. Samantha was an independent girl, Harold seemed to think. She is more than capable of doing whatever she wants, whenever she pleases, without any help. In fact, he thought about firing the nanny too and letting Samantha cook for herself, clean her room, do her homework. Firing was something Harold thought of frequently but not now. Now was if he was going to regret his past decisions.


It was dark outside when Harold got home and most of the house lights were off. Harold looked at the house on arrival and thought it was very strange that the house looked vacant. After pulling his car into the driveway, Harold walked through the garage and into the kitchen. There were no signs of Samantha anywhere. Harold turned on the light to reveal Samantha sitting with her back turned to him in the living room in the dark.


"What are you doing in the dark Samantha?" Harold asked, "I thought you didn't like the darkness," Samantha didn’t respond. Harold walked into the living room searching for the switch to the light and flipped it, but the light didn't turn on. The lights in this room seemed to not work but it was a job for another day. Harold went further into the room and stood beside her and he felt a tension in the room. Something was not right, and he was correct. Swiftly Samantha turned around to Harold and hugged him in her small arms and Harold knew instantly that Samantha did not have a good day.


"What’s going on Sam? You can tell me, I’m all ears." A slight bit of compassion to prove he was still a good father. Samantha didn't respond but continued to hold him firmly and he could only feel sorry for her. Maybe he has been working long hours and Samantha feels neglected. Harold thought carefully and thought about what Samantha wanted to hear, she wanted her father home and he agreed. He had been working long hours and barely had any time with her but that was what happened when you were an executive for a Fortune 500 company.


"How bout I stay home tomorrow?" Would you like that?" Samantha responded but it wasn't from her lips. He heard Samantha across the house and up the staircase in her room, not in front of him.


"Dad? The lights wouldn't turn on and I got scared so I hid in my room till you got home." Harold looked behind him to see a silhouette of a Samantha at the top of the staircase in dim light. "Who’s that?" She asked when she saw a small girl hugging him.


"I…I thought it was you," Harold said now breaking a sweat. If Samantha was on the staircase then who was this small girl? He tried to move the girl to let him go but she would not let go. Harold then turned her head to see her face and it in fact was not Samantha but some doppelgänger with black eyes.


Harold was petrified and held his breath as the small girl peered directly through him as if he and his daughter was food. She smiled revealing long sharp teeth in her mouth and at that moment Harold knew that his time at his Fortune 500 company would end this night. Constantly playing through his head, however, was, "you’re gonna regret it".






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Thursday, November 21, 2019

Into the Wild Part III

































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Tuesday, November 19, 2019

Lovesong






We float along. 
We’re always wading. 
Let’s build a house,
before we’re fading. 
I might have some things wrong,
but I’ll treat you right. 

Feels like the sun is always,
rising or setting. 
The day goes by,
and I never get a break. 

Just keep holding on,
as the ship does sink. 
Will we,
wait to see,
or will we make it be?
Just make this country,
something to set afire. 
Will we,
wait to see,
or will we make it be?


And if we die,
well try some other time.
It will be a story that I tell, 
my mother. 
And if we cry,
well start a revolution,
and a fire,
maybe this time I’ll catch a break. 

Just keep holding on,
as the ship does sink. 
Will we,
wait to see,
or will we make it be?
Just make this country,
something to set afire. 
Will we,
wait to see,
or will we make it be?




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Monday, November 18, 2019

Leak 11/18/19






Three posts this week

Lovesong: Poetry-11/19/19 5:00 PM MST 

Into the Wild Part III: Photography-11/21/19 5:00 PM MST 

The Doppelgänger (Revisited): Paragraph Story-11/23/19 PM MST  




During the week of Thanksgiving I will be taking a week long break to be with my family. Happy Holidays!






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Saturday, November 16, 2019

At the Bottom of Everything

















I put my things away.
I remembered,
all those things,
you said to me,
that digs a hole,
straight through,
the core of me. 

I spent that weekend in my car,
and drank enough for two. 
I felt I was nailed upon the cross,
trying to get to the bottom,
of everything,
and the bottle. 

One of these days. 
I’ll clean up. 
I’ll be ready to make my family proud.
But for now, 
I’ll search the bottom,
of everything,
and the bottle. 

All because of you,
when I dream a dream,
I drown in the ocean. 
As I pick up those words,
that you used to get to,
the bottom of everything. 
As I look through this bottle,
I think I see the ocean,
so it might be best,
to drown myself for a while. 
Till I get to the bottom of everything,
and maybe a bottle.



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Thursday, November 14, 2019

Before I Part




I heard it on the speakers,
late last night. 
Must we always,
do what were told?
Light a fire to lead the way. 

I boarded up the windows,
of my house. 
So I can complete,
something worth doing. 
We’re all growing old. 
Time is running out. 

To think that everyone,
must die,
and we all want,
to be something that matters. 
Searching for a former clarity. 
To be what’s worth while. 

To think all roads come,
to an end. 
Then we climb the ladder.
I need to be better.
I need to live better. 

To be all that I can be,
and live within the laughter. 
I’ll find my way before I part.




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Tuesday, November 12, 2019

The Sinners and the Saints

















The savior graces you,
we were bound to lose. 
Each little fragment,
of the broken past. 
Where has our kingdom gone?
Mistaken where we’re from. 
A simple headache,
and the wait is done. 

Do you know what you are?
Or are you insane?
I can see the expression,
on your misguided face. 
Do we fight the virus?
Or we submit our way?
The clocks keep ticking,
but the moment doesn’t change. 
In the midst,
of the sinners,
and the saints

You think you control us.
You think you know the way. 
You think you stopped,
the villains at their game. 
Where’s our kingdom come?
Now we’re on the run.
We lie in the midst,
of the sinners and the saints.






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